DISCLAIMER I HAVE NOT SHARED THIS BLOG WITH MY FORMER OR CURRENT COWORKERS OR ANY OF MY FORMER OR CURRENT NEIGHBORS
Since I’ve been thinking about regret and pain and other things, I’ve been thinking about decisions.
Lately I’ve made some interesting decisions which are for the better.
Nope its private, so don’t ask.
One decision I’ve made is to stay away from male coworkers. I’ll talk with them at work, but as far as getting too close, nope not going to happen. It’s just better that way. “No I don’t want their number, No I don’t want to give them mine, No, I don’t want to meet them no where, No, I don’t want none of their time…” I all ready know the rumor mill and the gossip train would start if I was talking to someone at work. Can’t even get away from that when it’s not related to dudes.
So I’ve been meeting new people who seem pretty cool and I like them. They remind me of my good friends I’ve had throughout my life.
*Stupid thing wouldn’t scroll up like I wanted*
It’s nice to get some things accomplished that I’ve been working on.
I still feel that people tend to think they know who I am. I really hate that, but you know there’s not much you can do when someone believes what everyone else tells them. Always feels like a group of people against one. Kind of like my character in the story. Feeling like you’re backed against the wall with people telling you who you are without even asking you. You know who you are, but it doesn’t matter.
I actually know who’s to blame for that. They know who they are.
Still I’m doing things I want to do and enjoying it, no matter what.
Still a lot of people are in pain. You can see it on their face.
Strange something seemed moved.
Oh yeah I guess my singing has been annoying the neighbors even though they make sure to tell me they can’t hear me. So how the heck can they hear me when my TV is up loud while I’m singing. I even whisper and they can hear me. Really strange. I can’t hear them and only occasionally when they get really loud.
I always seem to have nosy people in my life. I assume it’s because I don’t share my life with them. How can I trust any one when they think they know who I am and when they make it apparent they are being nosy. I don’t like people all up in my business. It’s my business and if I choose to share it with you then that’s different. I don’t have to share everything with you.
Trust is not given it’s earned. If you ever want me to trust you then you need to get out of my business. Also making fun of me doesn’t work either. I can’t trust anyone who thinks it’s OK to make fun of me because to me that’s being a bully and that’s not who I want in my life. I am very picky with who to trust and who I want in my life. Most people fail miserably at earning my trust.
Oh well I should get going. Tootsie